I LIVE
I know that I hung on a windy tree,
nine long nights,
wounded with a spear, dedicated to Odin,
myself to myself,
on that tree of which no man knows
from where its roots run.No bread did they give me nor a drink from a horn,
downwards I peered;
I took up the runes, screaming I took them,
then I fell back from there.
Hávamál, Odins Rune Song, Stanzas 138-139
I have just emerged from long and painful editorial revisions on my second book — thin and straggly-bearded, stooped and shuffling into the light — my eyes bloodshot and my typing hands cramped like claws — out of my office, which has become increasingly cave-like, and somewhat mildewy, and littered with scraps of paper like bones. At last, out of my office! From a thousand papercuts have I bled; my skin has grown pale, and slightly scaly.
For thirty days and thirty nights I have laboured in the editorial underworld, to bring back this:
What’s been happening in the world outside? It’s very hot and humid. Has Obama won the election yet?
July 25th, 2008 at 12:39 pm
YOU’RE BACK! O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!
But I totally do not believe you have a beard, straggly or otherwise.
I love the cover this time around. Care to share a hook or blurb with us?
July 25th, 2008 at 12:57 pm
The Gears of the City..I expect it to be loaded with
empathy for dying humankind.
Doors and Bridges in the higher astral come smashing down..
turning dreamers into brownish red jam.
The mental plain of the Bright World is difficult to acquire
by 99.99+ of the dreaming human(plural).
Your legit liberal thinking is refreshing on this planet of cudlips.
Richard K. Morgan has the right stuff also..
I would like to see you go against that monster of the Bush jr.
apologist crowd…Orson Scott Card..
I bet you would smack that bearded turd around good!
You and your wife are lucky..living in NYC..as only 1 in 11,000 people are
conscious(worldwide)…you have a nice little group(1,000)to be chums with..
from 7 days of age thru 130 years..7 years to 89 would comprise 889 people.
And if the other higher mammals are included as well as certain
insects and reptiles…quite a few more…many of these would be postphysicals
on assignment.
W.B Yeats-William Blake-Robert Graves-Aldous Huxley-D.H. Lawrence were
Science-Fantasy Poets..
They all were Gnostics..
As difficult as it is to fathom..The Nag Hammadi Library
is loaded with code…perfect food for the intellect..
Many are one a kind manuscripts.
The Imperial Church liquidated thousands to keep this information
from people. Now they consider themselves safe from the truth.
Just as your(excuse!)//the President and his cronies..consider themselves safe
from The International Court of Justice.
Don’t let The Church of Scientology option the film rights to
Thunderer or The Gears of the City.
They bought Zelazny’s Lord of Light and it has mouldered for 30 years..
Scientology has the bucks..but no heart.
Dark City had some gears…I know your gears will be as whole lot more
fascinating.
July 25th, 2008 at 1:05 pm
Geez! No edit on your message board.
I know your gears will be a whole lot more fascinating..
The s….a reminder….Seth Allogenes is the Hopi-Mayan Prophet..
July 25th, 2008 at 2:08 pm
Again…(The) Gears of the City…
The…Thetan…
Seth Allogenes is The Thetan…operating at 999^999^999…
At first thought..this pan google number would seem nonsensical…
The universe that we are enclosed in is finite..and living
therefore dying..
To be the reflection of The Ineffable is what Seth Allogenes is.
Here is an absolute proof..
Jan 26 1886….Jan 26 1986….Jan 26 1989
3 events allegedly took place on these dates..
only one is true…
Example 2…jan 26 1986 is the Challenger episode..
Example 2 is one of the two untrue ones..
As I understand this…it has to do with capacity and memory..
operating at 999^999^999..The Consort did effortlessly occlude/nay/change
the memories of every single human on earth and change all
internet, news articles and all “secure data bases” at will..
The only question is Why!
To get off the asleep seat….” The Concept Of Our Great Power ”
” Consume my heart away; sick with desire
And fastened to a dying animal
It knows not what it is; and gathers me
Into the artifice of eternity.
Once out of nature I shall never take
My bodily form from any natural thing. ”
Why not for humans to set sail for a starry Byzantium Dec 21 2012?
There was a man..a Galatian soldier at the Roman garrison town of
Diospolis Parva…he had some silver coin in his pouch…
Trajan Hadrian’s likeness..
He gave all his coin and his life saving The Nag Hammadi manuscripts
so they could be buried safe until discovery late 1945…
Melville a Gnostic…
” You know not how you came to be, than call
yourself unengendered: certainly you know not
your beginning, call yourself unbegun.
I know that of me, which you know not of yourself,
oh, you omnipotent.
There is some unsuffusing thing beyond you,
you clear spirit, to whom all your eternity is but time,
all your creativeness mechanical. ”
Melville was a member of The Brotherhood Of The White Light…
The most secret order in the history of this planet…
It matters not…with Seth Allogenes on this planet…
The chrysalis stage is near complete for humankind…
all of the above taken from the Dog barf Mystical Chronicles of Anubis..
July 25th, 2008 at 2:38 pm
I thought this would never happen…
Felix…you have been nominated for the “Chrome” award…
The first time a novel pre release has been so honoured…
It is in the memory of George “Beefcake” Nader the author…
for those in the know/it is equiv. to The Philip K Dick award..
perhaps the highest hosanna!
It is an exceedingly rare honour…
If you win…you get some extras…
A diving helmet and a big gorilla suit..
and a special Japanese robotic…that says ” Should I? or Shouldn’t I?
in 83 dialects…
Dr. Cordwainer Smith is crazy about you…
He is hoping for authorization..for to introduce you
to some extant friends of his here on earth..
July 25th, 2008 at 2:57 pm
Filex….Malhiero….Felix….Malheiro…
Episilon….The author Ray Aldridge says its ok…
When you can…contact him and look at his pots…
He is a genius potter and I suggest get a Science-Fantasy
motif doorknob-cabinetknob-or soup pot from him….
I wonder if a Gears of the City pot would be in the offing…
July 25th, 2008 at 3:04 pm
hi carrie, hi octoff
no pots, sadly, i cannot make pots
sometimes in the office i build things out of binder clips
July 25th, 2008 at 3:46 pm
I was beginning to worry that a heat-packin’ hamster had returned to finish the job on you. Good to see that you’re alive. Dare I ask in a purely mercenary way if ARCs will be going out in the near future on this?
July 25th, 2008 at 5:54 pm
presumably there will be ARCs
i shall see if i can get you one
publishing is a great and terrible mystery, i do not know what happens when or why
July 25th, 2008 at 5:57 pm
Thanks, I really appreciate it, Felix! By the way, sometime closer to the Geras release date, would you be willing to do an email interview with me? Been meaning to ask you for a while, but you up and disappeared with that work bit
July 25th, 2008 at 8:30 pm
hello, poker
how i have missed the gentle chattering of the spambots!
July 25th, 2008 at 8:30 pm
sure, Larry, any time
July 25th, 2008 at 8:33 pm
octoff, are you a john crowley fan?
July 25th, 2008 at 9:47 pm
I’m about to start work next week at a new school district, so the first few weeks are really going to be busy. Any time after that ought to work with me, if it’ll work with you. Just let me know the best time and we can work on it. Of course, it could take weeks, if you want
July 26th, 2008 at 11:54 am
Picked up Little Big and Engine Summer when they were hot novels…
Could not get beyond a few pages..
Harold Bloom(as previous) said Blood Meridian is the #1 piece of work
by an American author…it caused me to read this mainstream novel..
I figured Prof Bloom received cashola for his
laudatory blurbs…
It must be expensive to live the way he does…
hobnobbing with the likes of Con D. Cornbread Rice…
Just that Bloom insulted the Nag Hammadi..except
the couple of manuscripts that agreed with his consensus reality…
Because of you…I will now read some of Crowley…
I’m affected by what folks say who I respect…
Aldous Huxley…for instance…because of his Great courage..
So now I’m reading The Plumed Serpent…only cause
Huxley thought Lawrence was a cat whisker and an exceptional meow’rrr..
Mexico City is not Mexico.
The Northern Desert from Tucson south to Northern Mexico was closed to
his(Lawrence’s) perception.
Unless he found what he was looking for and wanted to keep
it a secret…I think if an equal armed cross was centered
around Rose Peak in Greenlee County, Arizona…
and if the arms oscillated northwest and southwest 351 miles…
I think that would be the abode of The True and Hidden…
at least prior to 1,000 A.D.
I notice/John Crowley has a blog…
Is he a good man?
Would he watch a bull fight?…or leave the stadium in disgust
like Kate did in the opening chapter of The Plumed Serpent.
Somewhere in America..there is a being who..when looking
up at the stars.. can incorporate the galactic universe into one neuron.
Some of the logions in Philip and Thomas in the Nag Hammadi
are trip wires for remembering..
Beards are good…I like the long white beards that the highest
magicians sport…I like to play with and lift up those beards to see underneath…The Ancient of Days has a fun one…but he is simply a doorkeeper
He obscures the Door underneath his beard..
The doorknob is really great…it is a final test to see if the
sojourner is a 1 per center to the 10th place..
I think that computes out to 1 in a quadrillion…
Grasping the doorknob has to be done in an exact way…
Just gets you into the seventh heaven without having to die first…
The 8th and 9th are much more fun…
The Tenth…almost impossible to speak of that….
Which John Crowley Books do you think are right for
a mind like mine…Aegypt?
Gears? when I think about that word……
Out in the Far West…Las Vegas?
There was a company that I used to call upon..
Gear Manufacturing of some sort..
The General Manager was always so nice to me…
Gears of Las Vegas…outside of a town in Northern Virginia
and NYC…The most wired city is(Las Vegas)in America..
I think human beings have little to worry themselves about…
609 million years have gone into making them so far…
One doesn’t throw into the ash heap a labor of love like that?
Right?
Are the galleys available for Gears of the City?
Were you in NYC when the bald guys king kong’d
The WTC?
That couple that held hands as they jumped from
The South? Tower..
I think about those two souls…
In your explorations of New York…have you been over to Crown Heights?
The Jewish group with its world headquarters there..is interesting..
They have some secrets of the Torah…
Bring a big bandanna with you if you look them up…
They do a lot of spitting on strangers…
Harold Bloom takes his extra wide brim fedora…even though its black..it matters not to that group..
There is young girl there..or was a few years ago..
said her father was the Israeli Consul General(Vancouver, B.C.)
She is prescient and is agreeable…she might have information..
I did not appreciate that group using their children
to write ditties on the 155mm cluster ordinance
that were fired into the civilian area of South Lebanon..
Hebrew words for Kiss Off Hezbollah Bad Guys..what’s with the spammers…Roulette…Fritz Leiber’s favorite casino game..
Met a Timber Wolf 18 miles out in the wilderness…an experience..
The gambling spammers must think you have
disposable income…don’t let them hook you on
100.00 slots…it can disappear lickatee-split..
Mrs. Gilman should be especially careful..
See what happens when you ask me a question!
July 26th, 2008 at 12:36 pm
it’s just that you’re obviously very interested in gnosticism, and i’m reading crowley’s Aegypt books now and they draw very heavily on that tradition
not for me to say whether he is a good man or not, i have no reason to suppose that he is a bad one
July 26th, 2008 at 7:22 pm
Gnosticism, Odin, Runes? You’re back!
July 26th, 2008 at 11:27 pm
Odin is a punk, fuck Odin
his treatment of poor Loki was unforgivable
a smart man with his eye on future opportunities would be trying to get on the side of the Frost Giants, the Frost Giants are going to sort Odin out but good
July 27th, 2008 at 11:48 am
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July 28th, 2008 at 3:46 am
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July 28th, 2008 at 7:32 am
If the critics are half as excited by your second book as the spambots seem to be I think you’ve got a winner on your hands.
Glad to see you’re still alive anyway, I’d heard rumours you weren’t dead but I tend not to believe anything’s real until it’s on the internet somewhere.
July 28th, 2008 at 10:27 am
I don’t know if I want to get on the wrong side of Odin… I think I’m going to trust Neil Gaiman on this one, Odin and his ilk are not to be trifled with.
Unless we’re quite sure that the armored bears in Svalbard got that $5.5 billion bucks for military defense… I’ll go against Odin if the bears have our backs.
July 28th, 2008 at 2:35 pm
i appreciate my strong following in the spambot community, but i’m not quite sure how to turn it into a revenue stream
July 28th, 2008 at 2:42 pm
Odin is a no-good one-eyed punk with a beard like a homeless person
and don’t get me started on Osiris
July 29th, 2008 at 6:28 am
Even if you can’t make money off them it must be nice to know that it’s appreciated by such a discerning audience.
July 29th, 2008 at 2:48 pm
I’m very excited about the new book — can’t wait to read it!
July 29th, 2008 at 4:02 pm
Maybe our spambot overlords are just a bit misunderstood? I guess even they have feelings too.
July 30th, 2008 at 2:34 am
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July 30th, 2008 at 12:29 pm
Neil Gaiman said…Wolves(Dire Wolves) skulk…Wolves do not Skulk..
Coyotes skulk some…never wolves…They are missles that aim straight
for the throat..
Homeless people?
Philip K Dick was darned sure that the ” Great Being ” would
be hidden in the debris strewn wastelands of America..
A homeless person-but probably w/o a beard..
Loki?
Phoenix, Arizona…a 19yr old girl and her 22 year old sister
drove around The Valley of the Sun in the 19yr olds muscle car
convertible…The younger girl had an enormous black male german shep’d..
perhaps 160-180 lbs..
It had a crazed look in its eyes…
His name was Loki…
The 4 of us drove out to Canyon Lake-past Tortilla Flats..
The girls were indecisive about swimming across the lake to
the Superstitions on the other side..
Loki and I swam across…The water deep, cold and pure..
Once on the far shore..which was jagged compressed arroyo..
I went a ways back into it…through the clefts..
with each step I could feel the power of those mountains..
Loki wouldn’t come along..
So I dived back into the lake to swim back..
Loki would not jump back into the water..hesitating as
dogs sometimes do..
Loki had found a 2.5 foot bank..and after 10 minutes
of treading water and coaxing him…w/o success..
I reached up and firmly but gently snagged his right
forepaw and yanked him into the lake…
Then we swam back across together as we had earlier
swam together to the Superstition side..
Only this time Loki would turn his eyes to me
and give me blood curdling looks…
The eyes of Loki the Dire Wolf( He could have been a ban dog-half shep and half wolf) were red..
I let Loki climb out first and wander the shore
while I swam about/for 10 minutes
letting the rage of Loki cool off…
The last thing I wanted to do was get in a tussle with this strange and fearsome
Black entity…
Odin?
In my travels…I had a business acquaitance who lived
@Ann Arbor, Michigan…he let me use his address for
insurance purposes and as an address for a Michigan
Drivers license…The address was 99 Valhalla Drive…
Poul Anderson’s ” The Mother of Viking Kings ”
is a good read and has nice stuff about Finnish Magic..
Although Poul’s ” Boat of a Million Years ” is
also very good…The Chapter on the Commanche(Kiowa Commanche)shows he did not know the truth about that great band of
first people…Anderson took the Robert E. Howard Texass approach..
skulking red devils…which is very far from reality…
Oh well! Now I’m gonna order Aegypt and see about JC’s approach
to heretical gnostic cosmology..
July 31st, 2008 at 10:03 am
Huzzah!!! Welcome back. While you were out, I fathered 4 more children. The brood expands.
August 1st, 2008 at 12:43 pm
1 in 100 quintillion…an unmeasurable iota of infinity…we all
make no mistakes in a universe whose only error was the act itself..